Small Rant/Vent(Language warning)

[Nero]

I am not sure if anyone remembers me saying my mom, grandmother and myself had excommunicated my sister; for doing drugs and allowing her husband to beat her oldest daughter from another husband.

Well she started coming to our house about 2 weeks ago. Ranting about how her husband was the devil incarnate. How he paid for the house of the foster family. Admitting her sins to us, and dreaming about how her husband was a product of rape.

None of it is true we all know that. She is getting so high on Meth and maybe even Acid that she is having bad trips. She needs help; she admits she does. Yet, she will not seek it.

My mother and grandma ran intervention last night along with his mother and other daughter(he has 3). She agreed to come down at midnight; at 2o'clock he comes back down to 'claim' her. We try to convince her to stay. She says that none of the other stuff was true, that she didn't know what she was talking about etc. and leaves with him.

She then returns at 6:30 - 7 tonight. HIGHER THAN A FUCKING KITE! Starts repeating what she said before and says she wishes to go to World Harvest. So my mom and grandma take her into Columbus.

What I am pissed about is the fact she refuses to go to a mental institution for proper help. She lies up one side and down the other. Acts like an item. And blames everything on our mother. She sent our mother on an emotional rollercoster when my nieces and nephew were taken away and we did not see them for close to a year.


Needless to say though my mother still accepts her as her daughter she is NOT my sister. She is a lying cunt who is better off dead than living her miserable existence doing drugs. She is that lady my mom loves with all her heart but everytime they see one another my mothers heart breaks into tiny pieces. She is a bitch who needs to leave us alone but won't because we are family.

We are family...damn it.

-blinks back tears-

I hate her.

[Syn]

Nero what you are going through I am too I don't want pity so I'm not gonna give you any but Nero I'm here to help of you need it remember your one of my best friends and I will help you as much as I can

[Nero]

Maybe similar feeling but not the same thing Ender.

This relationship is like this:

My ex-sister is in a hole she can not get out of. My mother and grandmother are a rope she keeps a a grip on. She places her feet on the walk to climb but only ends up on her back cause she has no strength to climb out. I am the rock the is tied around holding in place so it does not fall in the hole with her. The weight is so great however that I slowly slide towards the hole. Once I fall in she is going to be more than a little bruised.

I wish the rope would slide off. Yet when it does I will be just a rock. I will sit there with no purpose and left to degrade in the rain. Because there are no trees to shelter me, no roots to hold me in place. One day I will be a pebble a shadow of my former self.

Depression is such an ugly thing. I'll get over though give it a few days.

[Syn]

hmmm i got a resolution go watch fairy tail anime or naruto preferably naruto cause i want you in the rp

[Nero]

If anime could fix everything I'd watch it every day. 6hrs a day 7 days a week.

[Kingmana]

First off, let me do this *Gives you a warm friendly hug* Nero...I can't say I have passed through what you have, most of my family is kind of mean and horrible sometimes, but none of them consumes any sort of hmmm addictive thing, alcohol included. But please don't underestimate my capacity of putting myself in other's shoes. I understand you.

I also have my own problems with family and yeah sometimes you do wish you could just leave them, that those ties are just not real in the end. What ties us to them in the end? Our mother conceived us, some of them raised us and most helped us mature. Though sometimes they do things only to hurt us in the pure stress of the moment when an issue comes. It's like all that babbling about family and love goes to the trash when something is up and they hurt us a lot. We try to think they are family, but...does it really matter? The only link we have is that of blood, though that's the first to be spilled in a fight. In the end it doesn't really matter, we choose with whom we want to stay and who to keep close, it's not really in our nature to stay within our family, nor it's to leave, we have the free will to choose, unlike other animals.

What I am trying to say is that perhaps you should stop thinking in terms of ''family''; sure it's your sibling, bloodly-speaking, but does it really matter? You don't want to have nothing to do with her, there is no need to make any sort of ritual to expell her from the tribe. I am saying this because I know how hurtful is to think a member of your so called ''family'' is doing this to you and the rest of your crew, but when you realize this person could just be a stranger you just happen to know (as strange that might sound eh) you get to calm down a bit and try to think on what to do about it instead of just focusing in rage and hate. You need to come to a decision on what to do now instead of focusing on how much you hate her, because believe me, our ability to find flaws and reasons to hate others is not really that limited, just like our ability to love and take care.

As for what to do about her, hmm. You know, my dad once told me that I could go to him if something bad happend. It doesn't matter how terrible, how awful or complicated it's, he will be there to assist me, even if I were to, let's say, kill someone (you don't see me as someone who can hurt others? Neither I do! But my father is just like that; he is from the old school and makes sure every possibility is considered). Note I said ''assist'' me, which doesn't neccesary (it never does) mean he is going to be on my side. I have more or less tested it, when he was willing to drag me to his house when I was at the square I walked to after my mom had screamed not to come back ever again (yes, I am still living with her and typing this in our house......no comments), but let's say he wasn't like 'come on, let me help you', he was more like 'get up already and stop crying, I am your only alternative, what are you going to do otherwise?'...yeah. My dad is quite cold in his way of being but he will always be there when you need him. I admire his ability to remain collected even in the worst situations just as much as I hate it too, since darn he is so freaking emotionless sometimes.

I am none to tell you what you should do, sadly the choice falls on you in terms of responsability (which is a topic I promise not to touch here). Some persons are just too complicated. I do feel my mother needs to consult a mental medic too, her hyper-hateful burst are...uuggh...but go and try making her do that. It's not easy to admit one needs help Nero, just like it's not easy to admit one's flaws, is just against our nature to think we are not damn perfect, even when we punish ourselves for mistakes sometimes in the end it shows the brain doesn't want to admit his problems.

It does sound like violence is involved there though. You are not saying how she said that whole 'I don't know what I am talking about'. Yeah it could be she is just trying to be a damn horrible bug to hurt, or perhaps she fears her husband that she changes mind in his presence, because that little detail of the husband going to take her and she agreeds with a total different argument....hmm....if she were there just to hurt, she would just walk away herself, not be dragged like that. It's complicated....violence does that thing to people. But yeah none besides you and your parents will do much because of the consuming thing. Though try to consider she is not there planning on hurting, she does need some help. But in the end it was her choice, she had the opportunities to get out of that situation, she still does, if she doesn't have the will it's a different thing, but she does have the choice, just like you have the choice to avoid her entirely and simply don't do anything about it.

Avoid focusing in how much you hate her and calm down. Yeah doing something different always works, I do need to get myself dragged to do stuff when I am feeling down. I also hope talking helps, somewhat, that's why I am running late to classes just to finish typing this =P. I like to think I can help in some way and it won't matter what, I will be there for you Nero, just as I am there for everyone, not because of blood-links, but because I appreciate each and everyone of you. I guess if you wrote this here, you were at least expecting some sort of response, well you now have mine. And if you excuse me....*rushes upstairs to classes, while logging off from the library*

[Nero]

That ending King lol. Yeah drama was getting to me. She stayed with my grandmother for awhile then went straight back to him. Needless to say we are on silent terms with her again.

I have never really felt a blood-tie to her. The word sister is like a title between her and me. I never knew a time when she wasn't in trouble or when she wouldn't be mean to me.

I also never accepted her back into the family during her brief period of staying in touch. Needless to say she is a stranger and it is not weird. It is saddening however to know one could have had a sibling to bond with.

My mother would be the person I'd go to. (And I did.) I used a refined version of the rope metaphor and she understood and told me about her thought. It was reassuring to say the least.


I REAAALLLY need to find my shirt that says I Don't Do Drama! I don't even like watching drama movies XD


Thank You King, you are a wonderful guy you know that.